What is the purpose of learning God to be a network administrator?

Chapter 45

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, Fan Zhe'an couldn't ride his bicycle back to IKEA, and was about to take a taxi.

The shiny black off-road vehicle braked slowly in front of him, Xu Zhencheng rolled down the window and hooked him.

Fan Zhe'an sat in the co-pilot, raised the corner of his mouth and said, "Why did you come to pick me up?"

Xu Zhencheng said, "By the way."

His voice was low and muffled like the rainy weather outside the car window.

Fan Zhe'an: "Who made you angry? I haven't seen you all day, it shouldn't be me."

Xu Zhencheng forced a smile, "Don't ask, no one has made me angry."

Fan Zhe'an looked at the wiper wiper in front of him, and from time to time glanced at Xu Zhenxin who had not changed his expression from the corner of his eye.

After a while, Xu Zhenzhen said: "If only it made me angry so easy and easy to solve."

Back at IKEA, Xu Zhenzhen sat on the lazy sofa without saying a word.

Fan Zhe'an could tell that something happened to Xu Zhencheng, and it was not a small matter.He had a standard for judging the extent of Xu Zhencheng's emotional changes.

He had never seen Xu Chengxin like this.

Gloomy, cold, inaccessible...

His intuition told him that getting close to Xu Chengxin now would definitely lead to bad luck.He chooses to ignore his intuition.

Xu Zhencheng glanced at him sideways, "Child, can't you see that I'm annoying, come to be scolded?"

"You scold me if you can't feel annoyed, just scold me." Fan Zhe'an said indifferently.

"I'm not in the mood to scold you right now." Xu Zhencheng took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit one.

Fan Zhe'an sat on the side and said, "What's wrong?"

Xu Zhenzhen took a puff of cigarette, "I don't want to talk about things that have nothing to do with you."

"Your business has nothing to do with me."

"So what if I tell you? It's useless except to annoy you with me."

There is nothing wrong with the tone of his sentence, it is so normal that it seems to be asking others "Have you eaten?" "What did you eat?"

Fan Zhean pinched the knuckle of his index finger, "I seem to be quite useless."

Xu Zhencheng let out a "huh", "Why do you say that?"

"At my current age, I'm at a time when I can't accomplish anything, so it's normal for you not to take me seriously." Fan Zhe'an was very clear about his position.

Xu Zhencheng smiled, "You know what I think?"

Fan Zhe'an looked at him with a serious expression, "Tell me honestly, what do you think of me? Employee, friend, brother, lover?"

The first three titles are normal, what the hell is the last one.

A smile appeared in Xu Zhenzhen's eyes, he shook the cigarette ash, and continued to listen to him.

Fan Zhe'an: "We are doing a lot of intimate things, but I still don't know what to do. You are like a kite without a leash. I can't see you unless I look up."

Every time when they kiss, Fan Zhe'an always likes to hold Xu Zhencheng at a high place, raising his head and asking for a kiss, which makes him feel very at ease.The feeling of being able to kiss him fiercely is like catching a kite, but he won't hold on to it forever. The kite is free and will fly again anytime, anywhere.

This is the first time in Fan Zhe'an's life that he knows what it feels like to have no sense of security.

Xu Zhenzhen thought for a while, then tapped his forehead with the hand holding the cigarette, "Xiao Faner, isn't it good that we are like this now? Men don't need too many promises, and promises are often the most useless thing."

These words sound scumbag, but this is a problem that Xu Zhencheng has been struggling with over and over again in recent years.Is the promise useful to a homosexual like him who is not recognized by most people?

If it is useful, is it a psychological effect or is it actually effective.

The older Xu Zhencheng became, the less he believed in those illusory things.The future is full of hope, but it is also full of unknowns and variables. The best state is to live well in the present.

He cherishes the time spent with Fan Zhean, but he doesn't want the two to be bound by the so-called commitment.In this way, he can calmly accept the separation that the two may come at any time.

Why so much pressure?Happiness itself is hard to come by.

After a long period of silence, Fan Zhe'an said calmly: "Xu Chengcheng, do you know what I hate most about you?"

Hearing his name, Xu Chengzhen raised his chin, motioning for him to continue.

"That's how it is now, heartless." Fan Zhe'an stood up and said calmly, "You never really put me in your life."

Fan Zhe'an returned to his bedroom.Xu Zhencheng's astonished expression was slowly revealed.

He thought carefully about every sentence Fan Zhean had just said.

——"I seem to be quite useless."

Is it because of me that the child has low self-esteem?

——"We are doing a lot of intimate things, but I still have no idea..."

Is the child saying that he has no sense of security?

—You never really put me in your life. "

The child wants to walk into my life in a real sense?

Xu Zhencheng was having a non-existent dialogue in his heart.

They are now in an obvious misunderstanding.

Xu sincerely thinks that Fan Zhe'an is just playing for fun and may leave at any time.Fan Zhe'an thought that Xu Zhencheng didn't take him seriously and had no affection for him.

Xu Chengxin scratched his hair, "Grass, Xu Chengxin, are you an idiot?"

He recalled it well now.

Fan Zhe'an is right, he often speaks very carelessly, and it really looks like he doesn't take Fan Zhe'an seriously.But he didn't think so, he cared very much about Fan Zhe'an, he didn't like to confide his troubles to those close to him.

Fan Zhe'an is a very good and proud person.

The proud Fan Zhe'an is willing to humble himself again and again for him.

After thinking about it alone for a while, Xu Zhencheng wished he could slap his mouth twice.

He is always hurting children's hearts unintentionally.

"The mouth is long to talk," Xu Zhencheng stood up and said to himself, "If you don't make it clear this time, I will sew it up for you tomorrow."

To apologize, Xu Zhenzhen, who usually only knocked twice, knocked four times, and then pushed the door open to enter.

Fan Zhean was making a video call with a blond foreigner with his laptop.Xu Chengxin could understand. They were exchanging some questions about Chinese learning.

Fan Zhe'an's education and amateurs are very extensive, from primary school to high school, from domestic to foreign countries... Those who are capable are not afraid that no one will find them.

"Send the composition tomyemail." Fan Zhe'an's pronunciation is very British, orthodox and elegant, and his slow ending is very annoying.

Xu Zhenzhen felt that this was all right, but when Fan Zhean called him in his ear, the lingering feeling... was unstoppable.

Xu Zhenzhen closed the door, and when he walked over, Fan Zhe'an just buckled up the notebook, put the things aside, and opened his arms to him.

Xu Zhencheng rushed forward and hugged him, "Are you not angry with me anymore?"

"Fortunately, I'm used to it." Fan Zhe'an rubbed the back of his head, "I also have something wrong. I know you are in a bad mood, but I still say those things to you."

Xu Zhenxin's heart warmed up, "Why are you so nice?"

"You can see my bad parts," Fan Zhe'an sighed, "I can tell you exactly what I think in my heart. I am possessive, and I can't see you staying with other men, especially handsome ones. , your concentration is not good, it is too easy to be hooked away."

Xu Zhenzhen couldn't help laughing, "If my concentration is really bad, I won't have anything to do with you."

Fan Zhe'an: "That's because I'm more handsome than all of them."

"Ah yes yes yes, Shuai has become a curve with no endpoint, infinitely extended."

"Isn't it a straight line?"

"Do you think you're straight now?"

Fan Zhe'an put his face in front of him, "Boss Xu, if I hadn't met you, I must be a straight man."

Xu Zhencheng said "Oh", "If I hadn't met you, I would be with that tall, rich and handsome Zhou Chengfan now."

Fan Zhe'an was not angry, "Fortunately, there are no ifs."

Xu Chengxin's mobile phone was adjusted to vibrate, and the vibration disturbed Xu Chengxin's train of thought. Xu sincerely hoped that it wasn't the dean's call.

Murphy's Law - If there is a chance that things will go bad, no matter how small the chances are, it will happen.

……

Fufu is the first child Xu Zhencheng met in the orphanage.

When I first met Fufu, Fufu had a bald head like a shelled egg. She was not born without hair, but because of chemotherapy treatment of leukemia, she lost her hair.

When Xu Zhenzheng appeared in front of her, she grabbed his hair, which was neither long nor short, with her small hands, and smiled sweetly. She was still young, and she couldn't say very gorgeous words of praise, she just kept repeating "good-looking" ""Long Hair Princess".

Xu Zhencheng looked at Fufu's smooth and round head and felt very uncomfortable.He grew his hair because he thought it looked good, but the little girl had to shave her hair because of illness.

difference of fate.

Xu Zhencheng picked her up, and the dean told him the story of Fufu.

The story of Fufu is very simple, so simple that it can be composed of two words: abandoned baby and terminal illness.

Because she suffered from leukemia, she was abandoned by her biological parents. There are many such children in the orphanage. They suffered unimaginable suffering at a young age. The time spent in the hospital accounted for most of their life journey.

When he met Fufu, she was already in the stage of clinical cure. As long as there was no recurrence within five years, the leukemia would no longer endanger her life.

When he was about to leave that day, when he put Fufu down, Fufu cried for a long time, so sad that everyone came to comfort her.

"Brother, brother... don't go!" Fufu expressed his emotions sadly.

Xu Zhenzhen said with pity: "Don't go, brother will come to see you tomorrow."

He originally only planned to stay in Jiang City for a few days, then it turned into a few months, and then he became the current permanent resident.

Xu Zhencheng and Fan Zhe'an were sitting in the corridor of the hospital.

The doctors are conducting an emergency consultation on Fufu's condition to determine the follow-up treatment plan.

Xu Zhencheng briefly told the story of him and the orphanage.

It's ordinary, but full of meaning.

Xu Zhencheng: "I promised Fufu to play the role of Rapunzel with her, so I didn't cut my hair, and left it so long without knowing it."

Fan Zhean leaned his back against the white wall.

They had been in the hospital until the wee hours of the morning.Fufu's sudden condition is very bad, conservative treatment is very risky, and bone marrow transplantation is currently considered.

Before the operation, he would receive various injections and take a lot of anti-cancer drugs with side effects, as well as blood transfusions, bone spurs, lumbar puncture... as well as chemotherapy and radiotherapy. Fufu's soft hair, which he kept for two years, would be shaved off again.

Thinking of Fufu is now just a little girl less than six years old.

Fan Zhean closed his eyes.