novelsmap Chapter 41 (Part 1)
Chapter 41 (Part 1)
I long for someone to love me violently to the death.
Four days before the Chinese New Year, a group of people who had just returned picked up their luggage again.
Except for Li Ran and Yu Jingruo who were from S City, the other contestants were from different places, and they were all holding plane tickets to go home and reunite with their families.
Li Ran's house is not far away, and unlike the others, he doesn't need to take things home for his family, and his and Li Tong's things together only have one suitcase.
"I'm one step ahead, brothers, Deng Deng said that he has already left!" After answering his girlfriend's call, hour took out his mobile phone and called a car, "Happy New Year, see you in the next year!" After finishing speaking, he dragged His two suitcases walked out of the club.
"I'm leaving too. There must be a lot of people at the airport right now, so I'm afraid there will be delays." After greeting everyone, River left behind Hour.
Brother Yang watched his teammates leave one by two until only Li Ran and Yu Jingruo were left in the club.
"When are you going back?" Brother Yang looked at Li Ran and asked.
"Leave later."
"Okay, then when you get home, send a message in the group." Yang Ge said, "I also packed up and went home."
Li Ran: "Yes."
Yu Jingruo was wearing a thin sweater with a coat over it, took a pear from the kitchen, walked to the sofa, sat down, and turned on the TV.
"Aren't you going back?" Li Ran looked at his movements and asked.
If Yu Jingruo didn't look at him, the channels on the TV jumped one after another: "I haven't come back yet, you go first, it will be dark later."
Li Ran said hello and walked out of the club with Li Tong.
Yu Jingruo was the only one left in the huge club. He was sitting on the sofa, and every TV channel was celebrating the New Year.
I don't want to read it.
He turned off the TV a little annoyed, went back to the room and changed his clothes, walked out of the club wearing a mask with the keys, and went to the mall supermarket not far from the club.
The entire supermarket is also quite old-fashioned, with colorful light strings and red lanterns hanging high. Every two steps you can see a lot of "Fu" and Chinese knots pasted on the shelves.
The supermarket was full of laughter and laughter, and the whole family bought new year's goods to welcome the new year. Yu Jingruo stood alone in it, like a strange person.
He lowered the brim of his hat, walked quickly to the frozen product area, took a few packs of quick-frozen dumplings and glutinous rice balls, went to the fast food area to get a few buckets of instant noodles, and pushed a trolley behind the long line.
"Mom, I want to eat chocolate!" In front of him was a pair of parents with a four or five-year-old boy. The little boy pointed to the shelf next to the cashier and said coquettishly to his parents.
"No, eating too much chocolate will cause tooth decay."
"No, no, just buy me a piece after Chinese New Year!"
"Let him eat a little during the Chinese New Year, and nothing will happen if you stare at him brushing his teeth after eating." The child's father said.
A typical strict mother and loving father, even if the mother is strict, she looks at the child with gentle eyes.
Yu Jingruo took out the earphones from his pocket and put them on, not listening to other people's communication.
When he finished paying and walked out with his things, the sky had already darkened. He gathered the scarf around his neck and went into the convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes.
Then, against the wind, he walked back to the club with a chill in his body.
After stuffing all the quick-frozen products into the refrigerator, Yu Jingruo pushed the door into the training room, turned on Li Ran's computer, and logged into his League of Legends account.
He logged into his account, and in the entire friend list, only sunflower was online.
Not long after, a message from sunflower came.
[I knew you would be online now, duo? 】
When Yu Jingruo touched the cold keyboard, the feel of Li Ran's keyboard was the same as the one he used frequently.
【Can】
Yu Jingruo was invited to the double row by sunflower. After he entered the room, he put on the earphones.
"How should we say, play mid-field or top-middle?"
Both he and Sunflower are in the middle unit, and if they are in a double row, there must always be someone who is not in their main position.
"It's fine, it depends on what you want to fight."
"Let's go to the middle." Sunflower changed his main choice to the top lane, "I've wanted to play Teemo for a long time."
Teemo is a hero...almost no one will use him to play games, even in high-end games, unless he is lined up with a teammate who has a grudge against him, someone will take out Teemo to be disgusting.
Yu Jingruo wasn't in a very good mood, the happy days in Y City a few days ago seemed like a passing cloud, and disappeared with the teammates who left the club one by one.
He chose his position on the mid laner and replied, "Anything is fine."
sunflower started queuing up, and kept muttering: "Are you at home? I saw your team's junior jungler post on Weibo this morning saying he was going home. Your home is in City S, so he should have returned earlier than him." Bar?"
Yu Jingruo didn't want to mention this matter, since sunflower didn't know anything, he answered with a casual "hmm".
"Bringing the champion home, your family must be very happy." Sunflower was still rambling, "When did you fight, I was at home and my mother wouldn't let me face the screen for too long, always saying that I would be blind tomorrow .”
Yu Jingruo laughed mockingly as the black mirror could reflect his own face.
Any glory for him, as long as it is not what his parents want, is not glory.
And as long as his growth does not follow the path of his parents, he himself is not what his parents need.
"I'll get some water." Yu Jingruo didn't want to talk about family with him, so he changed the subject, took a cup and made himself a cup of tea, and when he returned to his seat, the circle of successful queuing had already turned more than half.
After holding the mouse and pressing OK, he sat back on the chair, banned heroes, and chose heroes.
"What are you playing?" Sunflower's Teemo was banned, he "tsk", and chose a disgusting Alchemist, "Play Snake Girl, the Alchemy Snake Girl can trigger it."
"I want to play with a knife girl." Yu Jingruo said.
Daomei, a hero who knows how to play 1v5, Yu Jingruo always has a feeling of boredom in his heart that he can't vent.
After locking the hero, he opened the cigarette he had just bought, took out one in his mouth and lit it.
White smoke gathered in front of him, and the smell of nicotine temporarily dissipated his boredom.
"I'm disgusting in the top lane, so I won't play with you in the middle lane." Sunflower said.
Yu Jingruo didn't speak, and manipulated the hero in his hand, and played the opponent's flash at the first level, and the opponent's mid laner returned to the bottom of the tower and returned to the city.
Daomei flashed forward, ignited and received Q, and after accepting the head, Q minions returned to the line, the damage from the defensive tower hit him, and when he was about to accept his head, Kaixuan gave him back a mouthful of blood .
"Are you so fierce?" Sunflower's voice reached his ears.
Yu Jingruo gave a soft "hmm".
[Void Dungeon Beast: The mid laner is awesome, the first level single kill]
Yu Jingruo squinted, with a cigarette between his fingertips, and went home after clearing the line.
He played very aggressively throughout the game, as if he wanted to get rid of the boredom in his heart. In less than 10 minutes, the opponent ordered to surrender, and he got two-thirds of the team's kills .
"I haven't had a good time yet, the opponent was bulldozed by you." Sunflower said, "You hit so hard, Fire is on top of you?"
Yu Jingruo realized belatedly that this style of play was Li Ran's usual style.
He smiled lightly: "Let's do it next."
Three games in a row, Daomei, Qiyana, Akshan.
He took such ridiculously high damage and flexible heroes, and each game ended in less than 25 minutes.
After Yu Jingruo finished smoking the third cigarette, his voice became slightly hoarse: "No more."
"Hey, okay." Sunflower thought about these games, if it wasn't for Yu Jingruo in the voice, he would have suspected that the person on this account was Li Ran, "Then I'm going to bed, you should go to bed early."
"Ah."
After turning off the computer and the lights in the training room, he went to the kitchen, cooked a small bowl of dumplings and returned to the room after eating. He turned on the light and took out the book that he had read countless times from the drawer.
"Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit"
He was 14 years old when he bought this book. When the people around him started to have a crush, he began to send love letters to the opposite sex behind his back behind his teachers and parents.
Naturally, there were also girls who blushed and asked his classmates to deliver letters of their own hearts to him.
At this moment, he suddenly realized that he seemed to be different from the students around him, and he didn't have any meaning for these girls beyond the friendship of his classmates.
It wasn't until he read this book for the first time that he realized that girls can also like girls.
Does that mean men can like men too?
He has never been exposed to sex-related movies, and for the first time he watched a whole same-sex movie in his room without telling his parents. Naturally, he also dreamed that the protagonist of the movie was replaced by him and a blurred face , the first wet dream.
That's when he realized it.
Ah, so I like men.
When he left home, except for this book, Yu Jingruo didn't take anything with him. He walked out of the villa that had confined him for 18 years and started his own life.
The heroine in the book finally reconciled with her adoptive mother, but not long ago, he received news from his father that he severed the relationship.
His longing for his parents to accept him and welcome him back home was ruined when he saw his parents holding a baby and meeting him by chance. For his family, he is not a person with self-awareness, but a... failure .
It wasn't until he watched Li Ran and Li Tong getting along that he realized that he was longing for a family from the beginning to the end.
Even what he originally thought, all families would not choose to respect their children's decisions. After all, Hour's career journey was paid for by a big fight with his family.
Until he heard the phrase "Li Tong can do whatever she wants" that Li Ran said.
Yu Jingruo pursed his lips, and a faint smile appeared in his eyes. He sat lazily on the chair, picked up a pen, and wrote a paragraph under the title page of the book, with his name on it.
"I want someone who is fierce and will love me until death and know that love is as strong as death"*
The author says:
*Translated from "Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit": I long for someone to love me violently until death, knowing that love is as strong as death.
感谢在2022-05-2219:50:50~2022-05-2223:17:57期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: Jing_, 1 bottle of liver daddy;
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!